One month

Everyone tells you that kids grow up too quickly-- but I've never fully understood this until having a child of my own. 

This first month has flown by & has definitely had some tough moments. In this past month I've learned to change diapers, I've accepted the fact that I will never be a breast feeding goddess, and I've been maddened by sleep deprivation. Admittedly, a baby is a lot of work & I thought it would be much easier.

Although it's had it's tough moments... it's been amazing to watch this little man start to become his own little person. He is already holding up his head, smiling (probably gas), and rolling to his side. I can't wait to see what next month brings for this little guy-- hopefully more sleep for his mom. :)

A new journey

Today my husband & I were driving to the grocery store.. Just the two of us. I was reminded how 3 weeks ago this was my life.  I don't know why but in this moment in the car I reflected how dramatically my life has changed in such a short time, how being a mother instantly changes everything... forever.

I don't think anyone or any book could ever truly prepare you for motherhood. (Believe me, I read every book, blog and forum out there.) It's just something that naturally happens. There's no words to describe the love, patience, frustration, fear, and excitement you feel when you are with your baby. Somehow you start juggling a million things & feelings-- functioning in a way you could never have thought possible prior to a baby. Today I looked at myself like, who is this amazing woman?

This is just the beginning of the journey of motherhood. It hasn't been easy but it has been the most rewarding thing I have ever experienced. Kade Thomas, you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I love being your mommy.