Reasons, Seasons, & Lifetimes.

Lately, I've been doing a lot of soul searching. Thinking about my life thus far and the start of changes. Change is ineveitable. It's part of growth. It's part of life.

But a hard change that undoubtedly must be made for my own happiness involves some of the "friendships" that I have in my life. Friendships that were never really frienships. Friendships that have expired. Friendships that don't hold true to the defintion anymore. I'm to the point in my life that I'm done with a few of them. I'm washing my hands. Our reasons and seasons have come to an end...

I got an an email recenty that I keep thinking about and it couldn't have came at a better time. (Thanks Erica!)

People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season!

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.]

I'm thankful for this email. And for the ability to stop and reflect. And for the reason and season friendships for they have shaped me into who I am... and with that being said, I'm on to the next chapters of my HAPPY life.

Blessing In Disguise

Recently, I made a decision to go back to school for yet another degree; a Specialist in Education. In the beginning, I was very apprehensive about the decision to do so but was persuaded to go ahead and join the program despite my reservations.

Currently, my life is extremely busy. In a nutshell, I am a first time home buyer, my brother & 3yr old nephew live with me, and the work of a teacher never seems to end. Needless to say, I am stressed beyond words!! Yet somehow, I found the time to fill out the FASFA forms, write admission essays, request transcripts, blah, blah, blah, the whole nine yards!!

Since admission into the program, I have been mentally preparing myself for the amount of studying and discipline that would be required of me. Although, I knew that pursuing another degree would be an added stress, something inside of me was secretly excited to be back in school.

Yesterday was the start date of my new program, however, I didn't go. Everything just seemed to come to a halt (note: for extremely good reasons). As I sat in the parking lot watching everyone else walk into the building all I could think is that I was wrong not to trust my initial gut feeling--that feeling of apprehension.

Yes, I'm disappointed but I truly believe there are no coincidences in life. It may sound cliche but everything happens for a reason...maybe it was timing or maybe this just wasn't the program for me. I'd like to think that maybe this was just a blessing in disguise.

Angel Faces

My best friend, Angel, is a MAC makeup artist in New York City. He is unbelievably talented. He is amazing! I love when he comes back home to visit... for the short time he is in Kansas City, I have my own personal makeup artist.

It never fails, every time he does my makeup, I feel brand new. I feel womanly. I feel muy sexy. I can be anyone. I can do anything. I become bold. I become confidant. Who is this woman???


Angel finished my makeup and Eve started with my hair.


Ready for a night out with my friends.


No matter the look he gives me-- the smokey eyes, the golden bronze, the creative look, the deep creases-- he always manages to transform me into some kind of goddess.

The out & about pic: Eve, Angel, & Me.

Check out Angel's Profile http://www.angelfacesmakeup.com/

The Resolution: Eve

Day???: This is why I love my best friend. She knows me so well and am thankful she puts up with me!!





Me: Yeah, I'm about to get ready. We're gonna kick it tonight girl!
Eve: Ok, what you wearing?
Me: I think skinny jeans, black top, and those bebe heels.
Eve: Ok, start getting ready now.
Me: I'll call you when I'm ready.. give me an hour.
Eve: Cool.

***Hour goes by***

Me. Hey.
Eve: You're not going are you?
Me: No.
Eve: I knew it that's why I didn't even start getting ready.

Here comes the stress!!

There are two really big commitments that I must make if I am ever going to be a "Grown-Up".

1) Get married.
2) Buy a house.

Seeing that one is not option for me right now, I have proceeded with number two. I have done it. They accepted my offer. I have bought a house. I am officially a "Grown-Up".

Now.....

I feel the ulcers brewing. There are no major problems with the house. I just got my contract back. I am sending it to my loan officer on Monday. There have been no hangups in the process; everything is going smoothly. So why is this still so stressful?

Well, I know finances are one big stress...every time I walk through my new house I see more and more things that I need to do!!! My mind goes wild; this needs painting, that needs to be replaced, this needs fixing. Cha-ching, Cha-ching, Cha-ching. The dollar signs are adding up quickly.

Not to mention, it seems like any spare minute I get in this already crazy life of mine...I hear, "call this person, sign here, send this, fax that, call again, oh wait--sign again". Why can't you just get everything you need all at once? No, that would make it too easy. There are honestly, just not enough hours in the day!

I am happy about my house. Really, I am. It's exciting but between the jumping through hoops act with the house paperwork and the budgeting for the houses' expenses... I am stressed.