Life isn't always simple....

All sorts of choices confront us in our everyday existence - from the big life changes, to the small and mundane ones. These past few weeks have been full of decisions and because of that I have fallen off of the blogging bandwagon and you have missed out on ‘mi vida loca’, for that I apologize…

Often the 'right choice' in a situation isn't clear at all, and we as people can struggle to find our way through the complexity of it all. I have somehow allowed myself to get caught up in this blunder of complexity and transformed it into stress. Through pros and cons of my decisions I have made myself miserable. Woooosahhhhh.

All of the self-inflicted chaos could end by just not doing a darn thing….but even deciding to do nothing is a choice, even if it's one that doesn't require much action it can still bring on the anxiety. In the end, I guess all I can do is give it to GOD and hope that the decisions I make are the right ones for me. 

Thanks blog peeps, for listening to my obnoxius whines of self-pitty ...  :-)

Hello, My Name is FATTY!!!

Everyone has heard of the "Freshman 15", the infamous weight one gains when they go away to college with a little help from some horrible late night fried food and lots and lots of cheap beer . Well, what happens when you gain weight in the beginning stages of a relationship? What do they call that? Is there a name for this chunk of roll that has appeared in my midsection and my booty?

Last night, my beau and I went to watch the Missouri Maverick's game... just so happens if you get there early you can get half off of the concessions, woohoo lucky me! So, as I stuff my face with chili cheese fries, I whine to the beau about how chunky I'm getting...

Me:  Omg, I've gained like 8lbs since we started dating.
Him:  Really? I've lost like 11lbs since we started dating.

Why is it that women gain it so easily? And men shed it in their sleep? It's not fair and it's not right. Someone needs to publish a book called, "How to Avoid Gaining Weight in a Relationship". I would buy that book in a heart beat!!

What happened to DEMOCRACY???. .

Missourians-- pay attention to the Wisconsin Unions and what the teachers, public employees, and the middle class workers are facing because WE are next, it will eventually happen to us. After everything that happened in Egypt last month, we are now seeing chaos in our own country; a country that has rarely seen such large and tense demonstrations.  We are watching people storming the Wisconsin capital doors with picket signs and 'It's About Freedom' t-shirts, people are now rising up and wanting to be heard.  We should all go help demonstrate for the dispossessed in Wisconsin, every single one of us. It's a time to come together and fight;  fight for this assault on working families, the attack on public employees, and this slander on education. The rich keep getting richer and the poor keep getting poorer. Republicans are waging war on the middle class!!!

Wednesday's disrespect for the people was blatantly shown when Wisconsin Republicans passed a bill that stripped public sector unions of some of their rights. Their disrespect for the people of Wisconsin and their rights is an outrage that will never be forgotten.  Less education, less health care, and fewer jobs means hurt people and a hurt economy.Where is President Obama? And why is he not addressing the bullying the Wisconsin Government is doing?
What's an even bigger travesty to our nation it that the teacher's are being used as the scape goat in the middle of all of this mayhem. The country is not in turmoil because of teachers. If teaching were just a "job" then pay them babysitter wages or minimum wage and teachers would make more than they do now.  Teachers do pay in to their health care anywhere from 20-50%, which is comparable if not more in some cases than those in the private and/or corporate world. Teachers pay into their own pension, as well, from their own salary. When they finally can retire, often into their 60's, their pension contributions will have been paid 95% out of their very own pockets! Many districts, towns, and the government do NOT match contributions as many who have a 401k.  Teachers subsidize their retirements by contributing to an unmatched 403b plan. Teachers pay out of pocket for supplies and extras, lunches and coats or sneakers for children that don't have it. They pay for graduate classes and many have Master's and PhD's in their field. Do other 'jobs' have such requirements?  Missouri Teachers-- This is what we are facing!! It's starting now, small, but it is starting with HB 628.  Union busting bills are being introduced in at least 10 states, including Missouri. ( MNEA Union)

Unions work together, labor and management to reach a mutual agreement. Teachers have made many concessions, taken increases on co-pays, premiums contributions, pay freezes or no raise at all which in turn means they actually take home less and less each year. Teachers need to make a living wage just as any other professional or any other American for that matter. Who is paying your health care? How much do you actually contribute to it? Who is paying for your medicare? Who is paying for your pension when you retire? A union is simply a voice! There are many reasons why the economy is in the state it is in and it is real simple to choose an easy target to blame the unions. This will not solve the problem, nor will ignorance.

America, you need to truly get informed. You need to educate yourself on the facts, not the twisted hype or spin that the media sensationalizes. If you don't, then you are continuing to live in ignorance and the real problems will never be resolved. Teachers are not the problem, public employees, and middle class workers are not the problem, they are part of the solution and they are doing everything they can to survive in this economy. Taking away their voice is simply wrong. What happened to Democracy? As the beginning of democracy is beginning in Middle East we are now seeing it end in the midwest. That is what the people in Wisconsin are thinking, that is what many of us are thinking. Nothing says democracy like voting with no notice, preventing the public from observing, and locking the doors of the capitol. We have to stand up for what is right.

People power is a beautiful thing. I support you #wiunion.

C'mon people!! It's The Beatles!!!

I am so very unhappy with tonight's American Idol.  The Beatles are not country, nor R&B or hip-hop. They're THE BEATLES!!! Tonight's show was demeaning to music and a travesty.

Every season I find myself overwhelmed with this feeling of disappointment when they have the contestants sing songs from exemplary artists like Elvis Presley and Whitney Houston. The Beatles and countless other classic bands/singers should not be allowed to be showcased and botched. End of story. What would Steven Tyler think if the contestants performed and butchered a few of Aerosmith's songs?  Well, it's pretty clear what he would think seeing how in the ten seasons of American Idol ...Aersosmith has yet to sign a release to have their songs featured!! Ok, I'll slow down on the blog-soap-box....The truth be told; legends stand on their own-- untouchable and defined and The Beatles are just that...legends.

Sooo, to my friends reading this blog in the name of all that is holy in the music industry, I allow you to GRRRRR and be upset with tonight's American Idol and whoever thought it was okay to butcher The Beatles on National Television!!!

My Gift. My Curse.

Sometimes.. I think wayyyy too much. Ok, not sometimes. I always think wayyy too much. I always have. It's my gift and my curse.

Lately, I can't quit analyzing a "relationship" in my life; over thinking everything. My mind says one thing and my heart says another. I don't know if my questioning everything is just my insecurities, my fear, just me being a moron or just me being smart.

Am I trying to find things wrong with this person? Am I trying to find things wrong with the "relationship"? Am I purposely sabatoging this? Truth is, I really don't know. Part of me thinks I am.

Then, the other part thinks this is intution. I'm a woman who knows what she's worth and I'm being smart. I like to think I'm capable of reading between the lines. I've built walls for a reason and I keep distance for a reason.

My gift: All this thinking & I may saved myself from a major let down.
My curse: I want my brain to turn off & I want clarity.

This little blog of mine....

Blogs are supposed to be this place I can go to and express myself. A safe place, a quiet place, a place where I can say whatever because it's mine. They allow me to write in a much more casual tone than I would if I were writing a paper or an article for school. They allow me to put my ideas that are not fully developed into the universe with a promise to deliver more later.

With that being said, I have so many things I want to write about. All of them being random but personal, maybe too personal, and definitely not developed. It's been an a crazy week.... note, I did not say a bad week. With that being said, I am thankful for the weekend and thankful for this little place I can go called a blog. I have spent the last hour reading random blogs and not having to think about what I really want to write and publish for the whole wide world to read.

All, I will say is I cannot stand obnoxiously opinionated people who talk about things they know absolutely nothing about!! Maybe someday I will develop this more and write what I really want to write on this little blog of mine.

Proof Read This!!!!

Ok, I usually don't use my blogs to do this but I need to get somethings off of my mind & I hope the person reading this thinks about it in thiers...

I'm about as livid as I can be right now and for once it's not regarding education. I cannot stand it when somone takes advantage of another person's feelings. It's not real. It's not right. It's not a characteristic that I even want to be associated with...

I'm mad at myself! Mad at myself for trusting. Mad at myself for being nieve. Mad at myself for believing in another person. Mad at myself for caring-- for even thinking that there could be a friendship.

Friendship is a two way street, I admit, maybe I could've been a better friend. I know that I have things I need to work on... being loyal isn't one of them, being a decent person isn't one of them, playing on someone elses' emotions isn't one of them either.

Today-- You have won. You have the upperhand... You got me. Great job.

God Bless America

It seems dismally sad on our society that there is controversy over the President addressing school children regarding education (CSpan 11AM- 9/08/09). Since when has the President of the United States ever reached out to our youth to inspire them like Obama has? Why is it wrong for him - the PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES - to address the children of our country to encourage them to get a good education, study hard, make good choices?

Are we that afraid? Is this what you want to teach your children? Is there so little trust in teachers that it is felt they will not be able to discuss contrary ideas with their students?

I am a teacher and I believe in freedom of press, speech and ideas. Regardless, how you may feel about Obama-- He is our President. To think that this kind of criticism is given around Obama's message for students to reach inside themselves and contribute to bettering their schools and community is completely insane.

Respecting one's President and his dedication and commitment to education is NOT synonymous with agreeing with his policy agenda - I voted for the man, but I am not particularly thrilled with his educational policies, however I have a great respect for his own personal commitment to intellectual development and, as a teacher, I believe having that commitment communicated to students would be a helpful thing. This whole controversy seems like just another sad incident in ever growing anti-intellectual trend of our country.