Life Update

What started out as a nervous date has now turned into the love of my life.... & we're engaged!!! I can't even put into words how incredibly happy he makes me. My life has been missing something & it's so clear what it was --him!! Let the wedding planning begin :)

And 3 months later....

Where has the time gone?!? It feels like yesterday I was blogging about the beau moving in and now...well, now, it's three months later and I am finally blogging again. It's like I've lost track of time, living in this crazy, crazy, crazy happy little world of mine and finally, today, I realized that it's three months later....

So, updates: I love my beau! I love him , I love him, I love him! I can't ever remember being this happy. He moved in three months ago and if I had known that it would be this bliss I would have had him move in a long time ago. Undoubtedly, I am supposed to spend the rest of my life with him. I've never said that about anyone in my life, I was the person that swore I would never get married. #bible.  But it is true, when you know you really know. I'm over here feeling like listening to Lauryn Hill's Nothing Even Matters on repeat...

Truth be told, I haven't blogged in the last three months because I have been busy living my life and truly loving every minute of it. I will do better job of including you in on mi vida loca. XOXOXO

Wow, BIG step....

Well, big things are happening in my house. This weekend, me and my beau are moving in together. Eeeeee, super excited and yet super nervous at the same time. Yep, BIG step.

Last weekend, we moved the small stuff and this weekend we are moving the big stuff. After this weekend, it's official. ALL of his belongings will be in my house!!! Eeeeee, again!

There's a bundle of fears within me. The what if's -- What if this doesn't work? What if I get on his nerves? What if he gets on mine? But in the end, this just feels right in my heart and over rides all the questions and everything else....

Sometimes, you have to set all reservations aside and follow your heart. Here goes this next chapter in my life.... stay tuned friends. :)

Just call me DEEBO!!!

Today's conversation at the pool:

Me: Is your bottled water hot?
Eve: Yea, it is.
Me: Oh, mine's not.
Eve: Danggg Deebo!!! You're getting worse!! *laughing

Now, those of you reading this blog and saying, "Who's Deebo?"  Well, if you have seen the movie FRIDAY then you have seen the character Deebo. My friend, Eve, has started calling me Deebo because she says I can be a little dominating at times like the character in the movie.  Now, I love my girl so when she calls me 'Deebo'  I take no offense. In fact, I then proceed to play the part of puffing up my chest, snapping my fingers, rolling my neck, and acting all tough-- straight up, being a bit of a bully. So, it's our ongoing joke that she thinks I can be a little much at times. Anyways, today's pool event made me chuckle but more than that it made me think....

Well, this weekend it really became reality that I am Deebo when my beau told me, 'quit bossing me around all the time'. At first, I went straight in to Deebo mode. Seriously, how are you going to tell me, sweet little me, that I need to quit being bossy? So, I got mad and copped an attitude for a long time until we both forgot about it and I didn't even really think about it again until today when Deebo reappeared at the pool.

It's always been in my nature to be very dominating. I am very independent and I have worked extremely hard to get where I am -- let me tell you, it did not come by being a push over. It came from being opinionated, strong minded and yes, maybe at times, a little Deebo-ish.  I never really cared about what anyone thought when they commented on my dominating ways but weirdishly enough it bothers me now. (I guess that means-- I like him, huh?) It's something I need to work on. Now, I'm not saying I'm going to be somebody I'm not but what I am saying is that I am going to make a conscious effort of when it is and isn't okay to let out my inner Deebo.

Hello, My Name is FATTY!!!

Everyone has heard of the "Freshman 15", the infamous weight one gains when they go away to college with a little help from some horrible late night fried food and lots and lots of cheap beer . Well, what happens when you gain weight in the beginning stages of a relationship? What do they call that? Is there a name for this chunk of roll that has appeared in my midsection and my booty?

Last night, my beau and I went to watch the Missouri Maverick's game... just so happens if you get there early you can get half off of the concessions, woohoo lucky me! So, as I stuff my face with chili cheese fries, I whine to the beau about how chunky I'm getting...

Me:  Omg, I've gained like 8lbs since we started dating.
Him:  Really? I've lost like 11lbs since we started dating.

Why is it that women gain it so easily? And men shed it in their sleep? It's not fair and it's not right. Someone needs to publish a book called, "How to Avoid Gaining Weight in a Relationship". I would buy that book in a heart beat!!

It's Official.

As I sit here listening to my Ray LaMontagne album getting things ready for my the first day of this long week, I realize I'm pretty darn happy with the way this weekend panned out... it's been only been since last night  since I've seen him and I can't quit smiling.

I've been a little secret nymph lately with my dating life and I apologize for that but not everyone's comfortable with their business being out there quite like I am. (read: my beau does not want to be on the blog tell all bandwagon) Anyways, I'll try to maneuver and shimmy around the black and white areas into the grey whenever I can and tell you about my lovely fellow a.k.a my beau.

So, the secret is out of the bag. . . .It's official, I am in a committed relationship!!  All I can say is that he is pretty damn amazing. I pinch him daily to remind myself of this and that it's real.   I feel like I can finally be done with my Carrie Bradshaw gig (if you're not hip to Sex&TheCity's characters then you're probably scratching your head in bewilderment.) and focus on a mature-honest-responsible-grown up-relationship. I feel like every day we learn something new and cool about dating each other.... and it's amazingly refreshing.

This weekend we did something that dating people do that I haven't done in a really really really long time: I introduced the beau to the family for the first time.

Gulp.

It ended up going quite well, thank goodness! My family is a huge fan of his... so am I.  All in all I'm really thankful to have me such a keeper... sometimes you have to go through some duds to find a stud. Hehehehe, ok that was cheesy but I truly think it's why  I have had to deal with so many douchebags over the years.

It's funny how when you're not looking for something it finds you. I couldn't have asked for a better weekend with my beau. :) :) :)

Ohhhh what a WONDERFUL weekend...

It is really Sunday already?!?!?? I guess that's the signs of a wonderful weekend. 

Friday, I went out with some coworkers to one of my favorite places in Kansas City, Trezo Mare. We had some delicious food & some yummy drinks. That restaurant is amazing!!!!!! The atmosphere is just what I needed to set the tone for the weekend. Dim lights and soft jazz does it for me everytime. It was such an enjoyable time that we decided to have an after hours get together at my house. Until Friday, I haven't really entertained in my new house, cheesy as it sounds, it was a really special night for me just for that reason alone. The six of us and a lovely fellow enjoyed each other's company with great conversation and lots of laughs.

Saturday, I spent the day shopping for a special birthday gift for a lovely fellow. After an hour of shopping, I really think I found the perfect present... thank you Macy's!  Saturday night, I went to dinner with my lovely fellow to a place I have never been called The Blue Moose. If you don't me, well here's something to know....I love going to new places.  The Blue Moose is in Overland Park, KS. It reminds me something similar to the restaurant Houlihans. A place where you can still wear jeans but it's still a kind of more upscale place.  The place was filled with KSU people which was wack but other than that it was a nice little place to start the evening. After dinner we went to Paddy O'Quigleys on 119th and OMG I have not had that much fun people watching in such along time!! The crazies were definitely out on Saturday! The night was filled with karaoke and dancing and chuckling.  Did I mention that I met my lovely fellow's friends???? Did I mention they were the crazies???

Sunday, I woke up and had chocolate chip pancakes cooked by my lovely fellow, I love a man that can cook!! Mmmmm, that could almost make a wonderful weekend alone by itself. <3

It's the little things...

It’s our different interest in music…

It’s how he kisses me randomly for no reason….

It’s the grabbing of my hand when we are walking…

It’s the way he gives me a hard time…

It’s his simple words..

It’s the questions he asks..

It’s the conversations we have…

It’s the way he makes me smile..

It’s the little things…

Ahhh, the joys of dating.

So, in two days I have a big date! Eeeeee, I am very excited! I am going out to dinner with an extremely charming guy. I'm not even trying to hide it, I am very fond of him. We have great conversation. We talk about the most random things. We can be serious and the we can joke and most importantly we laugh. We stay on the phone for hours. He makes me smile. :)

I only have one problem. We have never met.

So, now I am nervous that all these feelings could possibly end. I am not a shallow person. I need substance over looks any day of the week but in the end I do need some kind of physical chemistry. What if I am attracted to him but it's something else that sets me off like the way he chews his food? OMG, I can be so picky. I have played so many different scenarios in my mind. I am over thinking this, aren't I?