Recently, I made a decision to go back to school for yet another degree; a Specialist in Education. In the beginning, I was very apprehensive about the decision to do so but was persuaded to go ahead and join the program despite my reservations.
Currently, my life is extremely busy. In a nutshell, I am a first time home buyer, my brother & 3yr old nephew live with me, and the work of a teacher never seems to end. Needless to say, I am stressed beyond words!! Yet somehow, I found the time to fill out the FASFA forms, write admission essays, request transcripts, blah, blah, blah, the whole nine yards!!
Since admission into the program, I have been mentally preparing myself for the amount of studying and discipline that would be required of me. Although, I knew that pursuing another degree would be an added stress, something inside of me was secretly excited to be back in school.
Yesterday was the start date of my new program, however, I didn't go. Everything just seemed to come to a halt (note: for extremely good reasons). As I sat in the parking lot watching everyone else walk into the building all I could think is that I was wrong not to trust my initial gut feeling--that feeling of apprehension.
Yes, I'm disappointed but I truly believe there are no coincidences in life. It may sound cliche but everything happens for a reason...maybe it was timing or maybe this just wasn't the program for me. I'd like to think that maybe this was just a blessing in disguise.
i have learned to pay attention to those gut feelings. and i also agree, that things defintely happen for reason.
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